It started with an expectation that went unfulfilled. I had been looking forward to stocking the art supplies at work; the area of my enthusiastic expertise; the area in which I knew I could move fast and excel. Instead I was asked to do many other things, and I didn't mind doing the other things. I understand there are many things necessary to get the store ready to open and it was great to learn about them too. However, the art supplies were mostly put away on my day off and without my help. That was a letdown.
On July 1st came the the news that I was not chosen for the California Community Foundation Visual Arts Fellowship for which I had applied and had high hopes of receiving. They shared that it was a very competitive process as about 400 artists applied and only 24 Fellowships were granted. I suppose that was supposed to be some consolation, but it really wasn't.
Because a couple days before that I received a kind, form letter rejection from Trader Joe's, the grocery chain I applied at two months ago. At least they got back to me which actually is kind, but nevertheless rejection is still disappointing. Especially knowing I applied at Aaron Brothers, Michaels, Mousetrappe, Golden Paints, and Princeton Brushes among others with equal rejection. Thankfully Hobby Lobby did hire me and I hope to continue working there so I can eventually stock art supplies!
Tonight I'll get some rest and head back up the mountain tomorrow.
After I wrote this blog on Wednesday, it somehow reverted back to a much earlier version which added to the disappointment theme I have going here. I did rewrite it, but today I feel much better and I have wondered whether or not to publish this bit of whining. However, disappointment is part of the artistic adventure. So here it is.